"Sarah, am I enough for you?"

"The Lord asked me one day, "Kelly, am I enough for you?" Though I wanted to say yes, my discontent heart knew that would be a lie. The trust of the matter was that Jesus Christ was not enough for me. He was not filling my ever longing and desire." Sacred Singleness (Kelly's Story)

That is very scary for me to think about. I can hear God asking me over and over again, every time I worry or complain or wonder about my future, "Sarah, am I enough for you?". And like it is said above, I want to say so badly, "Yes Lord, You are enough for me.", but I can't, because honestly, He isn't. If He was, I wouldn't want all of the things I want so badly right now. I would want what He wants.

I long to be able to say "Lord You are more then enough for you." and mean it with my whole heart. I long to do His will, and throw mine away completely. I long to be able to trust in Him with every little thing in my life. I long to feel His presence and feel completely satisfied. Oh, how I long....

One thing I know for sure: I will be able to say all of the above someday. Maybe not tomorrow or the next day, but someday. Someday the Lord will be everything that I want and need. Soon.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:33,34